My Teenage Love Story (Part-4)
In the environment of Love and with the wierdo feeling, I started imagining many things. Like what after Gwen accepts my proposal? What will Gwen call me? What should I do to be a best partner? I will give Love which won't have any limit. Will Gwen be able to handle my childish character?No matter what I'll never leave Gwen for any reason and any situation. etc. etc. etc. With this thoughts for my Crush Gwen Stacy, I went home from college and started thinking about my thoughts.
The next day I got to know that Samsung was there with Gwen Stacy in Her Classes named Octave Classes. I thought that I would get some information about Gwen From Him, but he was against me from my very first impression. So I couldn't gain any information from Samsung. The day I got to know that Samsung and Gwen were in same class that very day, Almost everyone got to know that I loved Gwen and came for Gwen in the College that academic Year. I later got to know that it was the day when all got to know but, I didn't had idea that I would have a storm which I didn't wonder would come. That day very itself at interval, Samsung came with few of His friends to Beat me up because I loved Gwen. But that day I thought that I was damm lucky because from that group of Friends, few were my childhood friends from School Days. So they just warned me and went, it was a type of harassment but in friends it's ok. I was a bit feared to tell about the Harassment to anyone, because in the college from that very batch they had a very bad Fight a year ago. This group of boys beat a guy who gave a Badword to a Girl who was the Girlfriend of a guy from that group. And the group had nearly 45-50 boys naming the group as 'Chavad Boys', which meant 'Don't Mess with Us.'
I wasn't feared that time, I mean that very moment about the boys. But I was feared that due to any wrong steps I didn't want to Lose Gwen, as She was my First Love. And I just to know more about Gwen, like a brave man that day itself went to Octave Classes with Alex and Andrew for name sake of admission. As I was busy Thinking about Gwen, I forgot about the admission procedure, Living Jail and Harassment, I went inside Octave Classes without thinking anything else and just opened the door. And here came a surprise, tan-tana. I, Sorry I mean I and Alex saw that our Chemistry Teacher from Salvation classes was there in the office. I and Amit were like so feared and surprised that wouldn't She tell about the inquiry to our parents and all. But Mam with a smiling Face said,"You come Peter, I'll go. Will not say about it to anybody." After listening this I went inside and talked about the inquiry and Alex was standing outside with fear after seeing Mam. I talked about the inquiry inside and Alex managed Mam outside the Office. But anyways it didn't became a issue. As I went Octave Classes, that Chemistry Mam in her every lecture used to call me "Octave Classes" even though I was still continuing in Salvation Classes. I didn't got any more information about Gwen Stacy from Octave Classes but I got to know that their Classes took less fees then ours and that was a good thing. Ok ok, this is Love story, coming to point. After that inquiry I thought not to do anything like that again even though it didn't messed up anything but it was like a fear factor task. The next Day I went college with Alex and Andrew as usual. This Day we all weren't expecting that it would be different. As I was in seated in my desk I saw that students from Gwen's class were coming in my classroom due to Faculty issues. As Gwen entered the classroom I was in the level of full happiness, as I expected once that Gwen and I should be in one class and that dream came true. But due to this I didn't expected that Gwen would get upset. I got to know from Mercy that Gwen's peer friends Teased Her in my name. I thought that this wouldn't become a big scene and luck by chance that happened. That very day I had a fight with two people. One of them was from Gwen's Octave Classes but not Chavad Boys gang and the other was nearly to Chavad Boys. They both taunted me that,"Hey Peter, You like her? That Nepali? That white rabbit? That white cat?" And here as I was very sensitive in Gwen's case, I got angry very soon and started the Fight in the Classroom itself. It was good that we had our hard fight outside the College, otherwise I would have got suspended. Infact, not too much knew about this fight except Alex but after reading this might be all have got to known.
After that fight I got new encouragement to give more Love to Gwen. But with both of them whom I had fight, I still have cold war with them. I said them if You all would ask for Apology from Gwen and if Gwen forgives You, then would Forgive You both. But I knew they didn't granted for Apology. Apart from the fight coming to Favourite colour of Gwen, which was blue and Shinning colours. And literally from that Day onwards my every outfit had anyone thing which was blue or shiny. Either Shirt, pant or shoes or fully Blue. After This now, oho. Coming to main climax of my Teenage Love story. Might for this everyone was Waiting from the readers. I know some loved it very much and some not, I'm Sorry if You hated any part, but this was my story. Ok ok again coming to point.
It was Wednesday, 11th July. I noticed that most students don't come at Saturday and everyone from Chavad Boys mostly used to bunk as no practicals were conducted on Saturday. And I assumed that there wouldn't be too much crowd in college. And I started discussing about How to propose Gwen with Mercy, Ella and Emma. As they were with me with full support, I was happy that I wasn't Alone that time. As Alex knew full A to Z about me He and I started about how to Propose. But Alex gave me the idea of giving an Rose. I said Alex that His plan would mess the environment as it was college and students were mad minded. I was preparing my proposal as I was going to give speech for a military field. I might still have that very same paper in which I wrote the speech, ok I'll share what was written. It was written, " Hi Gwen. How are You? Hope so Your studies are going well. It's been 291 days, 7 hours and 7 minutes I've seen You for first time. See I loved You so much that I didn't bothered about the world. I had serious Crush on You and I won't let You feel sad or bring tears in Your Eyes. From today onwards Your Happiness will be my Happiness and Your pain my pain. I don't know how but I would keep You Happy till my very last breath. And I'll not cheat You that's a promise and I won't break that promise as I want to Marry You!!!" With this all lovely words written by me on a the last page of my Rough book and started preparing the speech like chatur from 3 idiots. As 11th of July passed came Thursday, 12th of July. I discussed about all the plans with Mercy and Ella. They both were convinced with my plan and approved it. On 13th I said Mercy to ask Gwen that wasn't She coming the next Day? And Gwen said to Mercy,"Yes, I am." In Gwen's answer I was happy but another side I was afraid that Gwen should be upset after my Proposal, infact I was ready to take a slap from Gwen in front of the whole college but wouldn't bare it if Gwen was hurt. That whole night I prayed to God that 'Gwen shouldn't get upset and accept my proposal. I'll keep Gwen always Happy'
Came that Day which changed my life, and also gave me a story to write this blog. Sorry, coming to story. This day was a very pleasant day, as it wasn't raining too heavily and was quite sunny. I woke up as it wasn't as inspiring as other days, but I was quite Happy. As I met Ella in Classes at Morning, I said please do help and I'll never Forget You, I'll never Forsake You when You need me. Ella said Ok and then She gave me inspiration with the word,'All the Best.' After Our classes it was time to go college. Alex told me that He wasn't feeling well so He went home and didn't came to college. Before going Home Alex gave me a tight Hug and said, "Just Do it Bro!" As I went college I was neatly dressed but wasn't that attractive. I wore good Clothes but it was not suitable for proposal as it was formal. As I sat in class I was Waiting for the moment to come when I would confess. Uff iff Uff. As it was 12 our college as per timetable started their lectures. I was in a full swing that I was going to propose for the First time and my Crush Gwen Stacy would accept it. As according to plan, I had to wait till interval for free time. But as I was Waiting I noticed that Samsung was present, which I didn't seemed to be a good sign for me. He came and sat with me, just as a name sake friend. He asked for pencil and took my pen. That's another thing that he didn't returned my pen, but he was a storm for me as I said earlier. Samsung wasn't that trustable in my eye sight so I just stopped talking with Him. As interval bell rang at 2:06 pm the teacher stopped teaching and then went to staff room. That Day I brought my Favourite lunch in Tiffin, but according to plan I had to go. So as Andrew was present at my side, I gave him my Tiffin and told Him,"Bro, my Treat. Enjoy!" Then I rushed to Mercy and asked Her that where was Gwen went? Mercy told,"She's down stairs, She'll come in few minutes. In plan we just saw the instructions and weren't specific about time. As the interval was only between 2:00 pm to 2:20 pm we had to do our plan very quickly. The bell doesn't rings at perfect time as sometimes early and sometimes late, so we didn't trusted it and sticked to our plans. I was waiting for Mercy to give a call. As Gwen returned to class Mercy rushed to me and called me saying Gwen arrived. And Ella and Mercy took Gwen Stacy behind their classroom, where there was space i.e. passage for other class to go. As Gwen arrived with Ella there, I too came with Mercy. Mercy and Ella supported me a lot that Day. I wish I could Thank them properly.
That moment came in that hour in that day. It was 14th July, 2:12 pm. I had eye contact with Gwen again in my life for Third Time. She was as Beautiful as I saw Her for the First time, like I said Angel in that same White Traditional Dress. As Gwen Stacy my Crush saw my I was Flat there and couldn't utter a word again with heavy and shivering legs. Gwen saw me and was a bit confused and Gwen asked Ella who was standing far afar from us, and Ella in sign language replied to talk to me. As I saw that language, I saw Gwen that Gwen was seeing me. So I started with,"Namste"(Hello) Gwen saw me with a small smile which I sensed wasn't good. Then with full courage I thought to speak up and tried to speak what I had prepared. I said,"Hi. How are You? See, from the day I saw You for the first time, I liked You. I hope I'll not let You down. I like You." With this I stopped and I must appreciate Gwen as She was listening me. By Approximately at 2:16 pm Gwen replied that,"Sorry but I respect Your Feelings. I know how You feel for me, but we can't do anything. I won't fall against my parents deeds. So Sorry but No" And by 2:18 the bell rang. As I said, the bell is not trustable. Infact if just the bell would have rang I would have managed some how to talk to Gwen again, but as I had a angel of bad luck with me through which I always lose opportunity, there came a security guard, who expelled us from that place. I was granting him for more 2 minutes. But he was thinking something rubbish and Yelling out. And I as a good boy with a silent shock told that guard,"Ok, I'm going. But if a boy and a girl speak, it doesn't mean they are wrong!" And I with the shock of rejection went to class, sat beside Andrew and started crying.
Imagine a Guy wearing light violet colour shirt, mud Grey coloured pant and Brown shoes with curly hair which wasn't combed during required time. That was my appearance when I approached a Girl whose out of my limit. And Yes, how would a Girl accept anyone's proposal without knowing Him. The mistake I did was going for proposal directly after my Hi. I should have gone step by step, but I directly Jumped for conclusion. When I imagine my situation that day, I think that that day was the ugliest face I ever had. In my mind I had a sound,"With an ugly face You are going to propose a girl, whose out of You limit. Are You gone mad?" The Night of 14th July was the very saddest of all my whole life. Thoughts were coming in my mind like Suicide, attack, etc. etc. etc. I did accepted and respected Gwen Stacy's words and thought to move on as in relationship, love from both side matters. And in my case it was just one side. I was just expecting a Successful relationship, and I wasn't prepared for the rejection, which changed me from that very moment. I don't know how, I went to depression. In depression I forgot what was happening and all. It was almost a month when I was in Depression. I obviously came out of if, due to which I wrote this all blogs. I Thank my Friend Alex and Harry, who were my moral support and helped me get out of the surrounding of Depression.
This was my Romantic Teenage Love Story. Hope so You all Loved it. I have another part i.e. in Part-5 in which I'll share what I did during and after Depression. To be continued...
I wasn't feared that time, I mean that very moment about the boys. But I was feared that due to any wrong steps I didn't want to Lose Gwen, as She was my First Love. And I just to know more about Gwen, like a brave man that day itself went to Octave Classes with Alex and Andrew for name sake of admission. As I was busy Thinking about Gwen, I forgot about the admission procedure, Living Jail and Harassment, I went inside Octave Classes without thinking anything else and just opened the door. And here came a surprise, tan-tana. I, Sorry I mean I and Alex saw that our Chemistry Teacher from Salvation classes was there in the office. I and Amit were like so feared and surprised that wouldn't She tell about the inquiry to our parents and all. But Mam with a smiling Face said,"You come Peter, I'll go. Will not say about it to anybody." After listening this I went inside and talked about the inquiry and Alex was standing outside with fear after seeing Mam. I talked about the inquiry inside and Alex managed Mam outside the Office. But anyways it didn't became a issue. As I went Octave Classes, that Chemistry Mam in her every lecture used to call me "Octave Classes" even though I was still continuing in Salvation Classes. I didn't got any more information about Gwen Stacy from Octave Classes but I got to know that their Classes took less fees then ours and that was a good thing. Ok ok, this is Love story, coming to point. After that inquiry I thought not to do anything like that again even though it didn't messed up anything but it was like a fear factor task. The next Day I went college with Alex and Andrew as usual. This Day we all weren't expecting that it would be different. As I was in seated in my desk I saw that students from Gwen's class were coming in my classroom due to Faculty issues. As Gwen entered the classroom I was in the level of full happiness, as I expected once that Gwen and I should be in one class and that dream came true. But due to this I didn't expected that Gwen would get upset. I got to know from Mercy that Gwen's peer friends Teased Her in my name. I thought that this wouldn't become a big scene and luck by chance that happened. That very day I had a fight with two people. One of them was from Gwen's Octave Classes but not Chavad Boys gang and the other was nearly to Chavad Boys. They both taunted me that,"Hey Peter, You like her? That Nepali? That white rabbit? That white cat?" And here as I was very sensitive in Gwen's case, I got angry very soon and started the Fight in the Classroom itself. It was good that we had our hard fight outside the College, otherwise I would have got suspended. Infact, not too much knew about this fight except Alex but after reading this might be all have got to known.
After that fight I got new encouragement to give more Love to Gwen. But with both of them whom I had fight, I still have cold war with them. I said them if You all would ask for Apology from Gwen and if Gwen forgives You, then would Forgive You both. But I knew they didn't granted for Apology. Apart from the fight coming to Favourite colour of Gwen, which was blue and Shinning colours. And literally from that Day onwards my every outfit had anyone thing which was blue or shiny. Either Shirt, pant or shoes or fully Blue. After This now, oho. Coming to main climax of my Teenage Love story. Might for this everyone was Waiting from the readers. I know some loved it very much and some not, I'm Sorry if You hated any part, but this was my story. Ok ok again coming to point.
It was Wednesday, 11th July. I noticed that most students don't come at Saturday and everyone from Chavad Boys mostly used to bunk as no practicals were conducted on Saturday. And I assumed that there wouldn't be too much crowd in college. And I started discussing about How to propose Gwen with Mercy, Ella and Emma. As they were with me with full support, I was happy that I wasn't Alone that time. As Alex knew full A to Z about me He and I started about how to Propose. But Alex gave me the idea of giving an Rose. I said Alex that His plan would mess the environment as it was college and students were mad minded. I was preparing my proposal as I was going to give speech for a military field. I might still have that very same paper in which I wrote the speech, ok I'll share what was written. It was written, " Hi Gwen. How are You? Hope so Your studies are going well. It's been 291 days, 7 hours and 7 minutes I've seen You for first time. See I loved You so much that I didn't bothered about the world. I had serious Crush on You and I won't let You feel sad or bring tears in Your Eyes. From today onwards Your Happiness will be my Happiness and Your pain my pain. I don't know how but I would keep You Happy till my very last breath. And I'll not cheat You that's a promise and I won't break that promise as I want to Marry You!!!" With this all lovely words written by me on a the last page of my Rough book and started preparing the speech like chatur from 3 idiots. As 11th of July passed came Thursday, 12th of July. I discussed about all the plans with Mercy and Ella. They both were convinced with my plan and approved it. On 13th I said Mercy to ask Gwen that wasn't She coming the next Day? And Gwen said to Mercy,"Yes, I am." In Gwen's answer I was happy but another side I was afraid that Gwen should be upset after my Proposal, infact I was ready to take a slap from Gwen in front of the whole college but wouldn't bare it if Gwen was hurt. That whole night I prayed to God that 'Gwen shouldn't get upset and accept my proposal. I'll keep Gwen always Happy'
Came that Day which changed my life, and also gave me a story to write this blog. Sorry, coming to story. This day was a very pleasant day, as it wasn't raining too heavily and was quite sunny. I woke up as it wasn't as inspiring as other days, but I was quite Happy. As I met Ella in Classes at Morning, I said please do help and I'll never Forget You, I'll never Forsake You when You need me. Ella said Ok and then She gave me inspiration with the word,'All the Best.' After Our classes it was time to go college. Alex told me that He wasn't feeling well so He went home and didn't came to college. Before going Home Alex gave me a tight Hug and said, "Just Do it Bro!" As I went college I was neatly dressed but wasn't that attractive. I wore good Clothes but it was not suitable for proposal as it was formal. As I sat in class I was Waiting for the moment to come when I would confess. Uff iff Uff. As it was 12 our college as per timetable started their lectures. I was in a full swing that I was going to propose for the First time and my Crush Gwen Stacy would accept it. As according to plan, I had to wait till interval for free time. But as I was Waiting I noticed that Samsung was present, which I didn't seemed to be a good sign for me. He came and sat with me, just as a name sake friend. He asked for pencil and took my pen. That's another thing that he didn't returned my pen, but he was a storm for me as I said earlier. Samsung wasn't that trustable in my eye sight so I just stopped talking with Him. As interval bell rang at 2:06 pm the teacher stopped teaching and then went to staff room. That Day I brought my Favourite lunch in Tiffin, but according to plan I had to go. So as Andrew was present at my side, I gave him my Tiffin and told Him,"Bro, my Treat. Enjoy!" Then I rushed to Mercy and asked Her that where was Gwen went? Mercy told,"She's down stairs, She'll come in few minutes. In plan we just saw the instructions and weren't specific about time. As the interval was only between 2:00 pm to 2:20 pm we had to do our plan very quickly. The bell doesn't rings at perfect time as sometimes early and sometimes late, so we didn't trusted it and sticked to our plans. I was waiting for Mercy to give a call. As Gwen returned to class Mercy rushed to me and called me saying Gwen arrived. And Ella and Mercy took Gwen Stacy behind their classroom, where there was space i.e. passage for other class to go. As Gwen arrived with Ella there, I too came with Mercy. Mercy and Ella supported me a lot that Day. I wish I could Thank them properly.
That moment came in that hour in that day. It was 14th July, 2:12 pm. I had eye contact with Gwen again in my life for Third Time. She was as Beautiful as I saw Her for the First time, like I said Angel in that same White Traditional Dress. As Gwen Stacy my Crush saw my I was Flat there and couldn't utter a word again with heavy and shivering legs. Gwen saw me and was a bit confused and Gwen asked Ella who was standing far afar from us, and Ella in sign language replied to talk to me. As I saw that language, I saw Gwen that Gwen was seeing me. So I started with,"Namste"(Hello) Gwen saw me with a small smile which I sensed wasn't good. Then with full courage I thought to speak up and tried to speak what I had prepared. I said,"Hi. How are You? See, from the day I saw You for the first time, I liked You. I hope I'll not let You down. I like You." With this I stopped and I must appreciate Gwen as She was listening me. By Approximately at 2:16 pm Gwen replied that,"Sorry but I respect Your Feelings. I know how You feel for me, but we can't do anything. I won't fall against my parents deeds. So Sorry but No" And by 2:18 the bell rang. As I said, the bell is not trustable. Infact if just the bell would have rang I would have managed some how to talk to Gwen again, but as I had a angel of bad luck with me through which I always lose opportunity, there came a security guard, who expelled us from that place. I was granting him for more 2 minutes. But he was thinking something rubbish and Yelling out. And I as a good boy with a silent shock told that guard,"Ok, I'm going. But if a boy and a girl speak, it doesn't mean they are wrong!" And I with the shock of rejection went to class, sat beside Andrew and started crying.
Imagine a Guy wearing light violet colour shirt, mud Grey coloured pant and Brown shoes with curly hair which wasn't combed during required time. That was my appearance when I approached a Girl whose out of my limit. And Yes, how would a Girl accept anyone's proposal without knowing Him. The mistake I did was going for proposal directly after my Hi. I should have gone step by step, but I directly Jumped for conclusion. When I imagine my situation that day, I think that that day was the ugliest face I ever had. In my mind I had a sound,"With an ugly face You are going to propose a girl, whose out of You limit. Are You gone mad?" The Night of 14th July was the very saddest of all my whole life. Thoughts were coming in my mind like Suicide, attack, etc. etc. etc. I did accepted and respected Gwen Stacy's words and thought to move on as in relationship, love from both side matters. And in my case it was just one side. I was just expecting a Successful relationship, and I wasn't prepared for the rejection, which changed me from that very moment. I don't know how, I went to depression. In depression I forgot what was happening and all. It was almost a month when I was in Depression. I obviously came out of if, due to which I wrote this all blogs. I Thank my Friend Alex and Harry, who were my moral support and helped me get out of the surrounding of Depression.
This was my Romantic Teenage Love Story. Hope so You all Loved it. I have another part i.e. in Part-5 in which I'll share what I did during and after Depression. To be continued...
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